Today I was in my office and I reached up on the shelf to get something down and all of a sudden things started falling on my head from the shelve. Thank goodness most of them were papers, but there was one thing that was a little larger and thankfully it wasn’t anything large, but it did get my attention as it hit me on the head! I picked it up and remembered where I had gotten this thing. My friend Nancy had given this to me last year for my birthday. It is a CD set of Beth Moore’s STEPPING UP bible study.
Since this hit me on the head I thought I should maybe listen to it today! Boy am I glad that I did. The first CD was incredible for me today. I heard it each time I was in the car today. As the boys and I were on our way home I started weeping.
Beth was talking about being on a “pilgrimage” to God. We read Psalm 84:5 “Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage.” Then it goes on from 6-7 saying, “As they pass through the Valley of Baca, they make it a place of springs, the autumn rains also cover it with pools. They go from strength to strength till each appears before God in Zion.”
Blessed in verse five means to be happy. So it says ….. HAPPY is he whose heart is set on pilgrimage.
Then she talked about perspective. Changing our perspective. That whatever we’re going through is not where we’re staying; we’re not stuck in this place. She said our circumstances will be a whole lot happier if we’ll get it through our heads that where we are is not where we’re staying. How much happier would I be? This time is a flash of time in eternity.
As the tears flowed I thought of my circumstances where I am right now. I’m longing in my heart and soul for two of my children to be home. For me to be their mommy every day, not just a few times a year. In my heart I’m lonely for them. In my heart and soul there are pieces missing.
I thought about my pilgrimage and where I’m heading. I’m on a pilgrimage to get my kids and right now life is hard on this pilgrimage. BUT it is not the end. I will not be here forever. Eventually my kids will be here and this time of longing will be a faint memory. My life will move on. I long to be happy on this pilgrimage that God has me on. It is hard to be happy though when times are hard, BUT I want to be happy. I want this pilgrimage to be a happy and blessed time in my life.