There is not a night that goes by that I don’t check my email just one … two … three … fifteen more times before I go to bed JUST IN CASE the email I want to be there is there. The one that says that we are out of MOI. Yeap I look for that email daily. In fact when I was out of town this past weekend I didn’t have my computer and it was so very hard on me to not have Aaron check hourly for me. I didn’t do that b/c I didn’t want my weekend to be consumed by the normal thoughts that consume me while I’m home. Tonight my phone rang and I didn’t recognize the area code so I didn’t answer. Then they called back and I thought “what if someone is trying to contact me about my adoption … answer the dang phone!!!”. I did answer it and it wasn’t about the adoption, but these are my thought processes!
I follow way too many blogs and many of them are adoption related. I love to hear good news with people’s adoptions. Tomorrow is a family’s visa appointment. This is big. Very big. They are so close to the end I can picture them arriving home! I will wake up with them on my mind tomorrow!
I read somwhere else today that someone went through MOI in 6 weeks. Wow! While I’m very happy for them, of course it leaves me asking the question … why them and why not us? One thing that I have learned and am still learning (obviously) is that you CAN NOT ask yourself that question during your adoption process. There is no answer. There is no reason. There is no reason. You can’t figure it out and you don’t need to try. That’s a hard thought for me, but I’m slowly, actually, very slowly, learning to deal with it.
There is not one day that goes by that I don’t think of Amos and Story. There are some days that not one hour goes by without me thinking of them. They are always there on my mind. I feel as though I will not be complete until they are here and we are a family. A complete family. All four of my kids under one roof. Now that my friends will be a glorious day. A beautiful day. A day to rejoice.
Some people have asked what’s next after MOI. I believe after this you’re granted passports for the children, they have a medical exam and then a Visa appt with the U S. THEN you can GO HOME! I’ve seen some people have kids home in 25 days after they get out of MOI. I’ve also seen it take 4 months after. Once again …. you just don’t know!