Someone asked me recently if we’ll have any more biological kids. We actually get asked this question a lot. I guess with one bio kid and 3 through adoption it is a wonder on many minds! I don’t mind this question as long as you don’t say … “are you going to have any more kids of your own?” …. or “are you going to have any more real kids?” ….oh my word I hate those words REAL and OWN in terms of my children. They are ALL MY OWN and they are ALL ALIVE AND REAL!
Okay off my soap box …. any more bio kids for the Ivey family? If you ask both of us you’ll get two different answers. From Aaron you’ll get a very confident and matter of the fact NO. He is done with kids. It is a miracle of God that we had two more after Deacon. He was happy then and God changed his heart. That’s a super cool story for another time!
If you ask me the same question you’ll get a different answer every day! Some days I’m sure that we’re done. Other days I would love to be pregnant one more time. I would love to nurse a child one more time. I’d love to try to give birth naturally one time. Other times I can’t think of birthing a child when there’s a child already born that needs a mommy.
Most days I’m totally content with my four kids. Four is a good number. Four kids playing sports is going to be expensive. Four kids going to college year after year is going to be expensive. These are all things that I normally do not think of, but Aaron always thinks of!
Yesterday I found out a friend of mine is pregnant. I’m so happy for her. But it was weird because I went to bed wishing that was me. Wishing I had something like that to be excited about. I think a lot of it has to do with wanting Amos and Story home so badly that sometimes I feel like I need something to keep me going. Not sure why I think pregnancy and a baby will do that for me, but I’m just saying what I feel sometimes. What’s sad is that by the time they get here I think I could have birthed two kids!
So to answer your question ….. We will not have any more biological kids unless God does a miracle on Aaron’s heart or if there is an act of God that can’t be stopped by human medicines!
I am completely content in my family. I could go the rest of my life with these four kids and never feel as though we should have had one more. I am also always open to more kids, however they would join us. Does that make sense?