it’s Haiti – don’t ask.

I feel like every time I turn around something else is needed for our papers to be complete and ready to move.  As soon as we think it is all there and all ready, we are told it is not.  We just found out that we now need Amos’ grandpa to bring his ID and come to tell about the abandonment of Amos.   Great.  Not sure if he has an ID card or a birth certificate, but Licia and Lori are working on it.

I have come to realize that when something like this happens I don’t get upset or angry.  For a few reasons.  #1 it is not like I have anyone to get angry at.  It is not someone’s fault that this is happening.  We just need more stuff.  No one to blame.  #2 it is Haiti.  Enough said.  I will not try and figure it out, b/c you can’t.  #3 I wonder if all these hold ups are for a reason.  Our papers have been there since Jan.  We had to redo our Psych letters, then we had to redo our letter to IBESR and recomendation letters, and now we need Grandpa’s ID card.  there are lots of hold ups right now in the system.  Different departments are holding people up and some people have even been denied their adoption and kicked out.  (oh dear LORD, please don’t make me go through this)  What if  God is keeping our papers out for a reason right now.  What if they went in back in January and we were have gotten into the hold up in IBESR?  What if?  What if?  What if?  I could do this game all night long.

I want my kids home so badly.  I want my papers to start moving so badly.  I want an IBESR number so badly.  I want all this, and I want it all in God’s timing.  That is the hard part.  I know in my head I want it in HIS timing, but in  my heart I want it NOW in my timing.

So, papers haven’t moved.  Still waiting on something.  I know God is in control.  He is bigger than any missing ID card!

8 responses to “it’s Haiti – don’t ask.

  1. Amen sister! Great title as well. Praying for you! I heard that Amos’ grandpa is on his way down to the RC tomorrow. Lori will try and take care of everything while I am gone. Adoption is not easy, or smooth, or what we think it will be —-but I believe in the end it is worth it. Just picture those big lips of Amos giving you a great big kiss.

  2. Jamie, I am sorry and yet I appreciate your perspective so much. God knows the “whys” … we too are wondering and waiting, as we found out from Barbara this week that the twins’ grandmother is refusing to allow their mother to follow through on the adoption plan right now. Will that change by the time our dossier gets there? We have no idea. Like you said, it’s Haiti … but thank you for the reminder that God is still in control.

  3. I feel for you. When you first said how long it could take to get them home, I couldn’t believe it. God bless you for being willing to take the beating of this slow and frustrating process. I pray He will make your path straight.

  4. thanks for writing this–i’m dealing with the exact same thing right now (different issues, obviously). Waiting on God’s timing is very difficult for me right now, so thanks for reminding me to keep trusting Him! we love you guys & we’re praying for story & amos!

  5. Your entry today came up on my Google News Alerts. I have been to your blog before; I am not sure it I took the time to say hello. We had to redo our physician physical exam. Ours was on a fill in the blank form and Mr. Cadet, who was in charge of IBESR at the time, wanted the exact same information in a letter, on clinic letterhead… notatrized. Anyway, people have used those fill in the blank forms before and since we were asked to redo ours.

  6. We are waiting for our two little girls to get the required “Presidential Signature” from President Preval. New (or very old) rules seem to surface every day. No one can give us answers. I just returned from Port Au Prince a few days ago, my fourth trip in 12 months. Visited the girls and the orphanage. Very difficult to leave them there but no choice. We have been at this for 14 month and pray every day for God to bless us and have the girls come home to us.
    There are many of us in your shoes. Hang in there…once you have your children home, you will have them forever. Think of this as a very long pregnancy, one in which you do not even know the approximate due date!

  7. Sorry for the set back but it sounds like your heart is in the right place and you are handling it with grace while taking it all in stride. Praying for you here.

  8. Don’t worry so much! It’s Haiti – go with the flow – degaje! BTW, he came this AM and it’ll work out fine! ….. I’m not totally sure how, but it’ll work out. I love your title too! It’s so true – don’t try to figure out – you’ll just waste time, loose sleep, and go crazy. God sees the big picture, so we’ll just have to trust that He’s got it all worked out and it’ll come in His Timing. Trust Him with child-like faith. Love Ya! 🙂 Lori

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